Overwhelmed and Overwhelming... But Blessed

The title of this post is literally how I am feeling these days. But in the midst of it all I feel blessed. It is only Wednesday, but it has already been crazy and overwhelming. I have started a second business. I am in business with my father-in-law selling used clothes that he finds at garage sales and estate sales. I am selling them online and he is bringing more than I am selling. I have rack upon rack of clothes and have only sold 6 items. As much as I hate laundry, I think it's ironic that I am selling/dealing with MORE clothes. Still trying to do my other daily things, cleaning, cooking, homeschooling, being a wife and mom, and all the other things that goes with life.

But in it all and through the chaos I am feeling blessed and at peace. I know that I am in God's will. He has a perfect will for my life, and above all, I want to be in that will. So if I have to go through a trial to be in His will, I am okay with that. But honestly I am praying that I learn whatever lesson that I am supposed to learn the first time around. I don't ever want to go through this again. I know it may be a selfish prayer, but it's how I feel.

The other problem I have is that some days I get so overwhelmed that I can't pray for anything else but myself. I try to get out of that funk, but I get stuck. I literally have to walk away from prayer and come back later when I can get my mind straight. Other days, I sit and cry before God and spill out my heart so that I can move on to other prayers. Some times I can't even talk and I just cry. I think that some times God just understands the tears. He knows our hearts and our needs and our desires. But I want to make sure that my needs are really needs and not just desires. I don't want to ask for things that I don't NEED right now. I really want to learn the lesson NOW and get through this.

I have already noticed changes in my life and in my family's lives. God is doing amazing things in our lives and I'm learning what faith and trust is really about. And, how important both of those really are. I keep reminding myself that no matter how overwhelmed I feel, I am so blessed. I have a roof over my head, food on my table, clothes on my back, a car that gets me around, our health.... and I could go on. That is so much to be thankful for right there. So, if we sit back from the overwhelming things of life and think, we can find many things to be thankful for. Life is amazing, and no matter the storm, trial or whatever is going on, there is so much more to be thankful for than not!